i am not belle

“‘They’re [Dylan's people] going to make a film and I’m supposed to star in it with Bobby [Dylan].’ Suddenly it was Bobby this and Bobby that, and they realized that she had a crush on him. They thought he’d been leading her on, because just that day Andy had heard in his lawyer’s office that Dylan had been secretly married for a few months – he married Sara Lownds in November 1965… Andy couldn’t resist asking, ‘Did you know, Edie, that Bob Dylan has gotten married?’ She was trembling. They realized that she really thought of herself as entering a relationship with Dylan, that maybe he hadn’t been truthful.”
- Paul Morrissey in Edie: An American Biography

After reading Edie: An American Biography, I really cannot sleep. What an interesting life she’s led, all these events that happened to her family members, her involvement with the Warhol crowd. I’ve gained such a deeper understanding of what she’s all about. The book is so good, I’m considering not returning it back to the library! That librarian was so right about it. I highly recommend it!

I was in such a raging mood this morning on the bus, frustrated at the fact that I had to hand in an inconfident chem report AND endure a painful four hour lab, Erdi coined it as ‘nerd rage’. I’m thinking of switching degrees, or at the very least, majors within science. I disagree with so many things in biotechnology, I just don’t have the heart for it (or lack of). After my lab, Ulrika treated me to dinner and then we went to check out the bookings at Wagaya. Everything is set. I’m looking forward to it (sort of). I try not to expect too much, though.

Can’t sleep now after reading the biography. I feel sleepy, but my mind refuses to turn itself off, so here I am. There is still a considerable amount of people online on my chat list. Maybe pulling all nighters, or gaming.. why else would you not be in bed at 2.30am?

I’m kinda thirsty now. Yesterday was bad food-timing day. I hadn’t ate anything til dinner. Even then, I couldn’t finish it. The consequences of having gum in your mouth all day.

Went out to Nails’ 21st birthday last night at Sushi-e. I am such an idiot for not taking photos. I have good reason- there were already so many cameras in effect, I figured they would up uploaded sooner or later and I can just take those. I would essentially be taking the same sort of photos anyway. Sushi-e was on level 4 of the Establishment Hotel. Really good food and a Justin Long look-a-like waiter guy made my night. Nails’ was already half drunk halfway through the 10 course dinner, which was paid for by the birthday girl. Thanks darlin’ for a great night! Argh, I will have to accompany pictures to this post, as soon as somebody uploads them! Amansbra and I went home after dinner because we were really beat. I woke up this afternoon at 1. I was so tired. I still haven’t done some decent study for stats. Am probably going to be screwed this coming Friday. Oh well. Hopefully, I’ll win them over with my sick probability skillz.

Am taking it easy today, like a lot of people, I assume. It’s a pretty warm day, my thermometer reads at 24 degrees celcius. It’s going to be around 30 tomorrow, I hear. It would be so nice I guess, to go to a beach or something, but I suppose most people would be cramming to finish off last minute uni assessments and such.

I went to the uni library the other day to borrow a biography on Edie Sedgwick, which I will need for a psychology personality assignment. Can’t wait to start and get this over with. I know nothing of Edie Sedgwick than from what’s on Wikipedia and Factory Girl. Even though the book was reserved, I couldn’t find it in the Reservations section and it was actually held in the reservations section behind the main desk, because it had nudie pictures (LAWL). Anyway, the librarian was gushing about how much he loved the book and how it was really good and told me about his Andy Warhol tour around Greenwich Village in New York and to the place where Edie caused a fire in an apartment building while sleeping with a lit cigarette. It was really interesting, he’s quite a character. I enjoyed listening to his stories. I would have stayed longer, had I not been in a rush to meet the Bourgeouis King for lunch. Maybe next time.

I wonder if I can do a post-grad in design after a science degree? I hate when my mind is all over the place about my own future. So much for stability. I want to be everything, it’s almost a little sick.

Ahh… such a nice day. Really don’t want to pull out the books and ruin it all now.